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Sun Faced Buddha, Moon Faced Buddha.
Feb. 25th, 2015 07:39 amLast night, at the sitting with the Toronto Zen Community, the teisho was the "Master Ma is ill". Hekiganroku Case 3, Sun-faced Buddha, Moon-faced Buddha. I was almost moved to tears.
A little about what is going on for me. I have bouts of depression that are very physical. I ache all over and it seems that sad facts stick to me like tissue paper does to polyester when the air is too dry. This trek to the dark mountain has been accompanied by a rather small kerfuffle that was accompanied by a great deal of cussing on the part of my mother. Long and short of it, I have complained too much and been metaphorically had my nose bloodied with a dismissive email from my sister. Dismissive in that she no longer wants to hear from me regarding our mother.
Add to that various other concerns and the coldest winter on record I have succumbed to this state where I must only plod through my day to evening as the winds of too much thinking and too much pain swirl around Dark Mountain, accompanied by Winston Churchill's Black Dogs barking and Hannibal Hector's favourite play list.
Now when I say "almost moved to tears" I need to say, we sit in Zazen during the teisho, neither looking left or right, eyes partially open and not focused on anything in particular. The posture of Zazen is not severe, it is pliant and strong and ultimately the best way to be present and avoid sinking into the mutterings of rumination. Tears are not usual but not a problem while sitting. You just let them fall without concern. They often are followed by a a clarity that is very, very good, and if anything else, I can blow my nose and clear my sinus!
So, What is "Sun Faced Buddha"? What, or who is "Moon Faced Buddha"?
Things get very simple when you are in pain. There is no separation between the day and night. One Buddha might live a long, long time, another, only a very short time. But Buddha arises. From where we sit on this ball speeding through the cosmos?
Free from suffering, each sits up as Buddha.
It is not about not feeling, not thinking. You don't "Zen out". But it allows me to realize a context larger than the one that so perpetually obsesses one. For this I do Zazen. Not to escape or mellow out, but to be open, to be unafraid, to be helped up with Sun Faced Buddha, Moon Faced Buddha, as I am pitched two and fro in this little boat on this vast ocean that is life.
A little about what is going on for me. I have bouts of depression that are very physical. I ache all over and it seems that sad facts stick to me like tissue paper does to polyester when the air is too dry. This trek to the dark mountain has been accompanied by a rather small kerfuffle that was accompanied by a great deal of cussing on the part of my mother. Long and short of it, I have complained too much and been metaphorically had my nose bloodied with a dismissive email from my sister. Dismissive in that she no longer wants to hear from me regarding our mother.
Add to that various other concerns and the coldest winter on record I have succumbed to this state where I must only plod through my day to evening as the winds of too much thinking and too much pain swirl around Dark Mountain, accompanied by Winston Churchill's Black Dogs barking and Hannibal Hector's favourite play list.
Now when I say "almost moved to tears" I need to say, we sit in Zazen during the teisho, neither looking left or right, eyes partially open and not focused on anything in particular. The posture of Zazen is not severe, it is pliant and strong and ultimately the best way to be present and avoid sinking into the mutterings of rumination. Tears are not usual but not a problem while sitting. You just let them fall without concern. They often are followed by a a clarity that is very, very good, and if anything else, I can blow my nose and clear my sinus!
So, What is "Sun Faced Buddha"? What, or who is "Moon Faced Buddha"?
Things get very simple when you are in pain. There is no separation between the day and night. One Buddha might live a long, long time, another, only a very short time. But Buddha arises. From where we sit on this ball speeding through the cosmos?
Free from suffering, each sits up as Buddha.
It is not about not feeling, not thinking. You don't "Zen out". But it allows me to realize a context larger than the one that so perpetually obsesses one. For this I do Zazen. Not to escape or mellow out, but to be open, to be unafraid, to be helped up with Sun Faced Buddha, Moon Faced Buddha, as I am pitched two and fro in this little boat on this vast ocean that is life.
so i got a paid account again if only because I have so much of my artwork here. This is a detail from a larger acryllic painting I did of my brother's dog Eddie just a bit beyond the house in the new development where they live. He is hunting for mice.