But you can only shovel one shovel full at a time and that is what I have been doing. I lose my shit with someone just doing their job, it's because I think the computer should be able to get it right before it spews another bill out, after all, I TOLD THE HUMAN SHE WAS DEAD. Nobody else would miss the fact that I am a bit f**ked up, this is what grief is like, especially when the history was contentious I am told, but I do and it trips me up and lays me low. Days go by and I don't want to get dressed. If I still had cable I would watch t.v. all day for days.
And yet I can feel so happy about having my spice shelf up and laugh so hard at a dog.
Is that nuts?
