riotheclown

you click on the pic and I think it will take you to his version of Joni Mitchell's song. The winter i got my diagnoses of Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma I had been seeing a guy for three years.  It was dumb really.  I had so many reasons to believe I was being played but it became obvious that something was going on with him and a new pharmasist where I worked.  I had never been "played".  I had guys cheat on me but they never pretended to be serious about me.  This guy would argue about the fact that I would not change my name when we got married and that sort of thing.  Maybe he was crazy or stupid.  It hurt.  I should have been smarter.

So I cut him loose when I found out how sick I was and what I was in for.  It was the worst Xmas ever.  My kids all went to their father's.  I was out of work.  (I had been so exhausted and I couldn't figure out why.  I thought I'd get another job easily like I usually did...)  G.D. and I went out to dinner on Xmas eve at a bar.  She was going on about her fav. topic back then, "What is wrong with your generation!" and this song played.  I guess you sell more beer if you totally bum out the customers. 

Almost ten years after I can listen to it with a better appreciation and a bit less emotion.  He is a true artist.  This is a lovely rendition of a beautiful and painfully true song.  We may all have our own reasons for pain, but it feels the same.  There is no other piece of music that captures such gentle remorse.